Hey, guys. I'm Pheonix, and welcome to The Trail Of The Broken. To be honest, I hope you like it, because we are all stuck on this trail, together. No matter how badly we wish to turn around and choose a different trail, we will all end up on the trail of the broken, one way or another. So, strap in, because there is no escape from this hell that is life.
We are the freaks and the forgotten. Other people see us as nothing more than trash. We welcome the torment, and greet the pain with open arms. Because we're afraid and broken, that's why we are on this trail. That is why we follow this "beaten path." Why we hide our faces when we come across people, or why we will avoid making friends...Out of fear. Fear of becoming close to someone. Of allowing anyone to see just how broken we truly are, because when people see the real you, they get hurt or they hurt you.
So, you hide you pain, suffer in silence, you don't speak your thoughts, and you never let anyone see you suffer. You fake a smile. You put on an act, just for show. You pretend that you're happy and innocent, when in reality you're far from it. You fake a smile and hide your scars because if you let your true self show, people get hurt. You do it to avoid the teasing and worried glares.
But, the truth is; we are all here...On the path of the freaks...The road of the forgotten...The trail of the broken. We are all here, and we are all alone, wondering this world with no map, no compass, nothing to guide you. You're on your own in this cruel world, with no one to catch you when you're falling, or to pick you up after you've hit the ground,
People will tell you that you're not alone and that they're there for you, but, just as you need them the most, they're no where to be seen. That hurts, a lot. It hurts to believe them, that they would be there for you, and then they aren't. It feels as if they intentionally hurt you...
Now, this isn't some inspirational shit speech or something. In fact it's probably the complete opposite. While most people will tell you, "get over it" or "stop being so over-dramatic," I'm here to tell you that there are other people who feel the way that you are feeling. I know that it's hard to believe sometimes, but, I'm right there with you, along with others. But, I'm not going to say that "we can get through this together" because there is no "getting through this", we are who we are and there is no changing that. Besides, even if we did change our personality, we will still have these emotions.
Everyone feels them; from the popular/preppy girls who dress like sluts, the "pumped up on steroids" jocks , standing there, slapping each other on the ass, to the "emo and goth" kids in all black and listening to music with a deeper meaning than sex and drugs, we all feel it; the depressing thoughts of worthlessness. All of these stereotypes and labels are just that, stereotypes and labels, nothing more. They're just masks, false appearances, put on to hide what is truly beneath them...Emotions.
Because, under those masks, and behind those fake smiles we all feel the same depressing emotion. It's not the emotions, or the thoughts that separate us into these stereotypes. It's how we express the pain and the suffering. "It's how we deal with these emotions, that matter." Not the thoughts that run through our heads, or the pain that we feel, it's the way that we show them, that puts us into these stereotypes and labels.
Remember that next time that you wonder off, onto the trail of the broken, alone. But, just because you wondered onto the trail alone, doesn't mean that you have to walk the trail alone. As you walk down this lonely trail, you will figure out just how broken we all are, and people will come and go. But, by the end of our journey, we will have lost a few, but gained so many. And while those gained will never replace those who were lost, there will always be the group of the freaks and the forgotten wondering down this beaten and deserted trail of the broken.
Though we part our ways now, we will meet again on the path that we all follow. Lost in the depths of this cruel world, this is Pheonix Slade, walking The Trail Of The Broken.
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